(A little bit belated post, originally due in last December.)
Basically, I’m a lucky woman, might
was borned under a lucky star. I feel it. I know it. I experience it. Many
times in my life, in my past. Therefore endless grateful. To
God. To Fate.
I have everything. Everything
that one can desire: a loving family, loving, supporting, proud parents, two
intelligent healthy children, a nice two-storied family house with big garden (which
I proud to maintain and carry on for several years on my own), a college and
very soon a university degree. I have a dream job that helps me to stay in
routine in English, to keep contact with people from any part of the world and
occasionally have the chance to travel to any part of the world and the salary
satisfies. Do I have the feeling to come to port? No, not yet. I have
doubts. I got most of the things I desired and some more, unwanted shit as
well. Grain of sand in the machinery. I cannot see the final outcome yet, but
I’m sure the time (and me) will solve. I’m not in a hurry. I have everything.
I believe that every moment of
our life can have effect to the rest of our life, in a later phase. Everything
is connected with everything. Just need to see it and understand it. We are our
decisions. Truly, we never fail, everything happens with reason. Just we need
to be aware.
My personality is shaping well and
might changed in the course of time as well. The unassured, little bit plumpish
girl with lack of self-confidence became an independent, self-dependent,
practical woman who stands up for herself in any situation. By now, I'm not
full of confidence but it often happens when I feel really good in my element.
Awareness also gave confident. Politics is far from me but anyway I can put a word
in anything and any situation. I'm endless humane. Tale of woes, but I bravely hold
the field. What doesn’t kill you, it makes you stronger, though. I learnt to
stand up for myself, to protect my interests and safeguard what is important
for me. I learnt to recognize what is abnormal, not to admit those things that
do not put on me but take away from me. Not any more I fight against clock, I
became a brilliant time and money manager, years taught me how to handle these
two. Both of them are limited and therefore needs to be respected. Pomposity is
far from me, but I run the risk of being the healthiest, fittest, slimmest (regarding my generation), greenest,
most educated in my big family. What is the bug? To boost my look, I have done
some steps. First one was the orthodontics, second one was the eyelid plastic
surgery and then the eyelid tatoo. Not great matters but they mean a lot for me.
What I never want to give up if it rains or shine, is the regular, daily
workout and healthy nutrition. These two are the keys for everything. The key
of living long(er), feeling good and sometimes the key of survivorship. Believe
it or not, I(’m proud to) fit into all my maiden dress even after two
deliveries - but I am a woman therefore I never can be fully satisfied with
myself. My efforts reflect that I make good in more and different fields of
life such as sport, work, child-rearing, gastronomy, travelling... I('m proud
to) aim the best of myself, because it is good being above the average in more things
at the same time. I'm very comfortable with driving. My favourite teacher (God
rests his soul) at the college always called me Fittipaldi. I was dare-devil on
the road until I became a mother, but my routine did not wear away. I'm OK on
any road of any country, in any car (even right-hand drive). Housework,
cooking, baking don't get out of me. Learning besides children is not easy but absolutely
solvable. Remained maximalist and never talk to the wind. I tend to take most of the things
seriously, sometimes too seriously. I'm persistant. I'm rather diligent than
clever. My favourite nation is the Japanese and favourite coutry is Japan that
fully enchantes me. I(’m proud to) have a brilliant business idea that would
make the world a little bit better place and could be profitable. Therefore I
know very well what to do with the lottery prize (if I had a lottery ticket). It
seems (according the quick test of yesterday) that I'm still negativ, not infected
with SARS-CoV.
Before my pregnancy I desired a
kind of deceleration and I got it. Better than I thought. I think I could grab
the opportunity and could utilize it entirely. I had time to arrange my rows
and to get ready to the second part of my life.
Thank you Mom and Dad, becoming such a person, who you both can be proud of. It is your excellence.
