Going 2 years back in time, I now
make attempt to truly describe how everything began between Gabi & me. It
is not a long story. However, so so many things happened since then.
A couple of years ago, I had a
vision. Or rather an anticipation. According to it, I meet the man of promise
when I decide to put the braces on my teeth. Why? The answer is simple: love
comes when you rely on it least. As a procedure like toothstraightening
temporarily may ruin self-esteem, so the opportunity was given. (Not that I basically
was swelled with self-confidence.) On 1st of August, 2017, just on the day I
got my braces, we both looked forward to being a couple from that time.
Gabi came from the same circle of
acquaintance and knew Dominik earlier than me. We met once on a birthday party
but did not speak or dealt with each other at all and later he came to my house
when we started to organize the summer vacation with friends, Juli and Laci. On
that summer we had a couple of joint program with lot of fun together,
highlighted by the Turkish vacation and then crowned by a weekend with friends
at a fishing lake in Kunadacs.
After a few weeks (namely two) he
moved to me and shortly I became uncertain not only in him but also in myself.
One day I packed his belongings and wanted to say goodbye. He was very upset.
We both were in love. As for me, I found most of the things in him that I was
looking for but somehow I felt less than 100%. My theory was to find someone
with well above 100% because in case the relationship becomes faded, the
percentage remains still around 100%.
The situation made me to rethink.
In the last 7 years, I hardly let any guy close to me, supposing they are not
the ones I was looking for. I did not want to flatter and then hurt them without
thinking the whole seriously. With other words: playing with guys and their
feelings was never my style. So when I realized that we were born not for each
other, I immediately said goodbye. I did not give time to them. Should had I?
At this point, I decided to give
time. Time to deepen the knowledge about each other. And it seemed to work.
What if my theory was wrong? Why to start at e.g. 120% and then let fall down
who knows till which number if we can start from e.g. 70% and then can go up by
small and small till the sky? Sounds much smarter.
We spoke about marriage and baby
and I thought that this is the man who deserves an own child best, seeing how
he treated the children around us. At the beginning of his 40's I knew well,
once the decision was made, there was no time to waste. And the biggest miracle
happened! The new little life was conceived immediately, two months after we
became a couple.
And here begins a new story. The next one I'm going to write about.